It’s the wee hours of the 1st day of 2005 and I’m sitting at home typing.
Guess what?
I’m actually rather excited to be putting my thoughts down into words. Ha… epitome of anti-social behavior.
So glad that there are no plans to bum around and talk nonsense through the night coz I’d rather use the time to consolidate the events of 2004. (Making permanent transient thoughts…) Just back from watch-night service, as a matter of record, and glad that I went, even though I was super overdressed, (had a wedding dinner before that) for the opportunity the sit-down session provided for reflection.
In summary, 2004 was a pretty good year. To begin, I made several good friends, mind you, I distinguish between friends and acquaintances/activity partners/course-mates… so if you see your name here as good friend made in 2004… feel suitably honored.
And the nominees are…in order of appearance…
Hongda (after Dec 2003’s YEP)
Huitian (post YEP and follow-up)
Jinghui (grew closer after Viet class and HTHT)
Mag (who gives me straight talk)
Ian (my philosophical online chat pal)
Norman (who bugs me while monitoring my progress)
Jieying (towards the end of the year when we became phone buddies)
Not to mention friends made in earlier years who touched my life in some special way this…eh…(nope… should start using) last year.
Kelvin who was there when I needed company during exam time.
Yimei who gives me good advice. (in addition to YSL goodies… Heh!)
XX my faithful mugging partner who called my mom (who scares her) just to find out if I was safe in India.
Of course there are many more people who were sparks in the course of the year. They’re not exactly good friends…but worth a special mention anyway…
Jeremy and Wilson who unwittingly dropped illuminating pearls of wisdom here and there during my growing up patch.
Nurul of entertaining conversations, have a hunch she’ll feature a bit more in 05…
My darling brother who gives me sermons on how to live my life better. (Jia you if you’re reading this… you’re Joshua who conquers nations!)
My dad… the man who loves me most.
Mummy… who’s tricky to describe coz of our love-hate-love relationship. We love each other but we just rub each other the wrong way… ha… but we bounce ideas/inspiration off each other.
In addition to the interpersonal side of things, these are some of the things I’ve done: (Realized that the first half of the year is already fuzzy in my memory)
12 months Timothy co-ordination
6 worship leading
1 year of mentorship
2 semesters of NUS
2-3 years old Sunday school class
1-2 on the spot English-Mandarin translation
1 FOC chairmanship
3 weeks attachment at Catholic High
2-3 weeks temping in church office
1 CG leader-ing
2 blogs started
1 YEP facilitator-ship
(And a partridge in a pear tree… ha…)
Oh yea, how can I forget… yours truly became of legal age! To be honest, I would say that most things on the above (extremely long and slightly show-off) list went quite smoothly. Hee… ego! In case anyone has forgotten… it’s MY blog! Who cares what people think… *bleahz* and *neh neh ni boo boo*
Ha!
Oh! Oh! My waist line reached a record low this year too! Haha…
On a more serious note…
Somewhere during the course of 2004, I also gotten over my first and only BF. Towards the end of the year, I’ve also come to terms with a “fling”. (Just a side note, I suspect I’ve also gotten over QS coz try as I might, I can’t remember his hp no… haha… totally irrelevant point and even more irrelevant substantiation of my point… but I still don’t dare to claim that I’m completely over coz I don’t particularly like the taste of my words… u know… I don’t like to eat my own words? Get it?? Ha…)
On the later, despite all my moaning about that (click on archives if you need to refresh ur memory), it dawned on me at the last hours of 2004 that I’m actually quite thankful that things happened this way.
Firstly, I’m glad that things came to an end before matters got even more complicated. Secondly, I’m thankful that even though I went through an emotional roller-coaster ride just before the exams, I did pretty ok. Hee…
Thirdly, the events made me… a better person? In that I now reflect more and I’m more appreciative of the people around me.
Fourthly, my approach and attitude towards “flirtations” is now much more prudent, sensible and (I hate to use that word) guai…Ever the advocate of “next guy is the guy”, this lady has modified the definition of that phrase to be less ambiguous. No more sampling of side dishes…(I’m dieting lah!)
Fifthly, I have a better idea of who I want, how to act and react in a relationship… etc etc…the usual cliché lessons learnt post breakup…
Sixthly, without the initial self-pity/nursing of wounds, I couldn’t have that potentially 2005-changing experience during Mass at Mother House.
Yep… quite an eventful 56 weeks uh?
When not so nice things happen, the common response would be to… well, feel sad. I think I go through periods of stress and shit like other people. And like many of my girl friends, I get moody/angst-ridden and depressed about it. But as mentioned in the conversation I had with Bel the other day, there’s no need to worry too much about me coz I have my faith to fall back on. I’m not perfect. I struggle. I brood. I say mean things to people. I’m a lot of not very nice things at times but I’m never hopeless.
Thank God!
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Some thoughts condensed but the drifting cloud is still cumulonimbus…
Guess what?
I’m actually rather excited to be putting my thoughts down into words. Ha… epitome of anti-social behavior.
So glad that there are no plans to bum around and talk nonsense through the night coz I’d rather use the time to consolidate the events of 2004. (Making permanent transient thoughts…) Just back from watch-night service, as a matter of record, and glad that I went, even though I was super overdressed, (had a wedding dinner before that) for the opportunity the sit-down session provided for reflection.
In summary, 2004 was a pretty good year. To begin, I made several good friends, mind you, I distinguish between friends and acquaintances/activity partners/course-mates… so if you see your name here as good friend made in 2004… feel suitably honored.
And the nominees are…in order of appearance…
Hongda (after Dec 2003’s YEP)
Huitian (post YEP and follow-up)
Jinghui (grew closer after Viet class and HTHT)
Mag (who gives me straight talk)
Ian (my philosophical online chat pal)
Norman (who bugs me while monitoring my progress)
Jieying (towards the end of the year when we became phone buddies)
Not to mention friends made in earlier years who touched my life in some special way this…eh…(nope… should start using) last year.
Kelvin who was there when I needed company during exam time.
Yimei who gives me good advice. (in addition to YSL goodies… Heh!)
XX my faithful mugging partner who called my mom (who scares her) just to find out if I was safe in India.
Of course there are many more people who were sparks in the course of the year. They’re not exactly good friends…but worth a special mention anyway…
Jeremy and Wilson who unwittingly dropped illuminating pearls of wisdom here and there during my growing up patch.
Nurul of entertaining conversations, have a hunch she’ll feature a bit more in 05…
My darling brother who gives me sermons on how to live my life better. (Jia you if you’re reading this… you’re Joshua who conquers nations!)
My dad… the man who loves me most.
Mummy… who’s tricky to describe coz of our love-hate-love relationship. We love each other but we just rub each other the wrong way… ha… but we bounce ideas/inspiration off each other.
In addition to the interpersonal side of things, these are some of the things I’ve done: (Realized that the first half of the year is already fuzzy in my memory)
12 months Timothy co-ordination
6 worship leading
1 year of mentorship
2 semesters of NUS
2-3 years old Sunday school class
1-2 on the spot English-Mandarin translation
1 FOC chairmanship
3 weeks attachment at Catholic High
2-3 weeks temping in church office
1 CG leader-ing
2 blogs started
1 YEP facilitator-ship
(And a partridge in a pear tree… ha…)
Oh yea, how can I forget… yours truly became of legal age! To be honest, I would say that most things on the above (extremely long and slightly show-off) list went quite smoothly. Hee… ego! In case anyone has forgotten… it’s MY blog! Who cares what people think… *bleahz* and *neh neh ni boo boo*
Ha!
Oh! Oh! My waist line reached a record low this year too! Haha…
On a more serious note…
Somewhere during the course of 2004, I also gotten over my first and only BF. Towards the end of the year, I’ve also come to terms with a “fling”. (Just a side note, I suspect I’ve also gotten over QS coz try as I might, I can’t remember his hp no… haha… totally irrelevant point and even more irrelevant substantiation of my point… but I still don’t dare to claim that I’m completely over coz I don’t particularly like the taste of my words… u know… I don’t like to eat my own words? Get it?? Ha…)
On the later, despite all my moaning about that (click on archives if you need to refresh ur memory), it dawned on me at the last hours of 2004 that I’m actually quite thankful that things happened this way.
Firstly, I’m glad that things came to an end before matters got even more complicated. Secondly, I’m thankful that even though I went through an emotional roller-coaster ride just before the exams, I did pretty ok. Hee…
Thirdly, the events made me… a better person? In that I now reflect more and I’m more appreciative of the people around me.
Fourthly, my approach and attitude towards “flirtations” is now much more prudent, sensible and (I hate to use that word) guai…Ever the advocate of “next guy is the guy”, this lady has modified the definition of that phrase to be less ambiguous. No more sampling of side dishes…(I’m dieting lah!)
Fifthly, I have a better idea of who I want, how to act and react in a relationship… etc etc…the usual cliché lessons learnt post breakup…
Sixthly, without the initial self-pity/nursing of wounds, I couldn’t have that potentially 2005-changing experience during Mass at Mother House.
Yep… quite an eventful 56 weeks uh?
When not so nice things happen, the common response would be to… well, feel sad. I think I go through periods of stress and shit like other people. And like many of my girl friends, I get moody/angst-ridden and depressed about it. But as mentioned in the conversation I had with Bel the other day, there’s no need to worry too much about me coz I have my faith to fall back on. I’m not perfect. I struggle. I brood. I say mean things to people. I’m a lot of not very nice things at times but I’m never hopeless.
Thank God!
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Some thoughts condensed but the drifting cloud is still cumulonimbus…
cLoUd DriFteD bY @ Saturday, January 01, 2005 |
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