Thought I better put up an update coz ppl were having reaction to my last entry and my msn nick.
Firstly, thanks to Iggy, Kel, Bel, HD who saw my “pissed off” nick and came to ask me how I was. Coz by chatting with you guys, my piss-ness was elevated. Despite all my insistence on being different, guess I’m just the same as every other wimpy, emotionally dependent, disturbed person who needs to know that there are people out there who care to feel soothed, concerned and loved.
Anyway, just back from supper with A and XY. In summary, it was a really fun talking nonsense catching up session... While walking back from the bus stop, cheerful and high from the good company, two things dawned upon me and evaporated the piss of the day.
Alpha: I need people around me to occupy me. Left alone to my own devices, I’ll brood and imagine things to be upset about. This sucks.
Beta: I listen to my mom too much. No really, that’s possible. I take stuff she says to heart too hard. Some things are gems of wisdom, but she has her off-peak times as well and when she says things that probe the raw spots in me, it really does get to me.
Conclusion? I need more growing up.
Quite ironic that as I increasingly moan to friends that I’m growing old, I am more aware of how much I need to mature as a person.
Late bloomer?
Firstly, thanks to Iggy, Kel, Bel, HD who saw my “pissed off” nick and came to ask me how I was. Coz by chatting with you guys, my piss-ness was elevated. Despite all my insistence on being different, guess I’m just the same as every other wimpy, emotionally dependent, disturbed person who needs to know that there are people out there who care to feel soothed, concerned and loved.
Anyway, just back from supper with A and XY. In summary, it was a really fun talking nonsense catching up session... While walking back from the bus stop, cheerful and high from the good company, two things dawned upon me and evaporated the piss of the day.
Alpha: I need people around me to occupy me. Left alone to my own devices, I’ll brood and imagine things to be upset about. This sucks.
Beta: I listen to my mom too much. No really, that’s possible. I take stuff she says to heart too hard. Some things are gems of wisdom, but she has her off-peak times as well and when she says things that probe the raw spots in me, it really does get to me.
Conclusion? I need more growing up.
Quite ironic that as I increasingly moan to friends that I’m growing old, I am more aware of how much I need to mature as a person.
Late bloomer?
cLoUd DriFteD bY @ Wednesday, January 12, 2005 |
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