This entire thing probably will sound contradictory. But it should…coz it’s how I am, how I feel now.
Torn, confused, contradictory.
Okay…
On one hand, I’m glad that he’s not going to completely cut me off.
On the other hand, I’m disappointed that he’s taken my not so subtle hint and is being distant. On a side note, I think he’s pissed/irritated by my move… but who wouldn’t.
(No more “hand” coz I’m not an octopus. =p)
Hmm… I’m gonna be honest here with my ‘raw’ feelings. Slightly concerned at what you might think of me as you’re reading this. But figured since you’re reading this, I must think you’re friend enough to give you my url, then I can be truthful to you and go through my sorting out process with you. Don’t let me down ya? Anyway…
I’m afraid that if things go on as they were previously going, ‘like’ will develop into ‘pseudo-love’.
But so quickly, I’m so used to having him around that I feel kinda lost if I don’t talk to him or sms him…
I still like him enough to want to remain friends.
I want to have him as a good friend but just close enough to be platonic.
I’m darn delusional in thinking like that. I know that…
But I’m ever grateful that I have friends like Badass who nags at me, and even though it’s ‘one small step to Badass, (it’s) one huge leap for me’. I’m probably not as good a rejecter as you think I should be, but I’m practicing.
Thanks HD too, for telling me again what I needed to hear. Even though I don’t particularly think I’m a princess now but will remember not to pick cute actors who ask for my hand. Haha… Thanks for depicting me like I’m damn sought after… haha… I enjoy being delusional.
And even though I am posting two entries tonight (given that entry rates are directly proportional to anguish rates) I’m glad I made the right decision to pull out of a potentially dangerous situation early, coz it’s obvious that the funny feeling in my tummy is going away very quickly. (compare and contrast this and the previous post and you’ll see)
Lectures and practical going hand in hand.
So… so far, seems like good work done.
*crosses fingers*
Wish me luck k?
Hope the rest of this test goes smoothly…
Torn, confused, contradictory.
Okay…
On one hand, I’m glad that he’s not going to completely cut me off.
On the other hand, I’m disappointed that he’s taken my not so subtle hint and is being distant. On a side note, I think he’s pissed/irritated by my move… but who wouldn’t.
(No more “hand” coz I’m not an octopus. =p)
Hmm… I’m gonna be honest here with my ‘raw’ feelings. Slightly concerned at what you might think of me as you’re reading this. But figured since you’re reading this, I must think you’re friend enough to give you my url, then I can be truthful to you and go through my sorting out process with you. Don’t let me down ya? Anyway…
I’m afraid that if things go on as they were previously going, ‘like’ will develop into ‘pseudo-love’.
But so quickly, I’m so used to having him around that I feel kinda lost if I don’t talk to him or sms him…
I still like him enough to want to remain friends.
I want to have him as a good friend but just close enough to be platonic.
I’m darn delusional in thinking like that. I know that…
But I’m ever grateful that I have friends like Badass who nags at me, and even though it’s ‘one small step to Badass, (it’s) one huge leap for me’. I’m probably not as good a rejecter as you think I should be, but I’m practicing.
Thanks HD too, for telling me again what I needed to hear. Even though I don’t particularly think I’m a princess now but will remember not to pick cute actors who ask for my hand. Haha… Thanks for depicting me like I’m damn sought after… haha… I enjoy being delusional.
And even though I am posting two entries tonight (given that entry rates are directly proportional to anguish rates) I’m glad I made the right decision to pull out of a potentially dangerous situation early, coz it’s obvious that the funny feeling in my tummy is going away very quickly. (compare and contrast this and the previous post and you’ll see)
Lectures and practical going hand in hand.
So… so far, seems like good work done.
*crosses fingers*
Wish me luck k?
Hope the rest of this test goes smoothly…
cLoUd DriFteD bY @ Saturday, February 05, 2005 |
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