I did it.
I did it today.
Did what I know I should have done earlier…Followed that rational voice that has been willfully pushed to the back of my mind.
I did it. And I feel like shit.
But better to feel like shit now, then to burn in pain later right?
I feel like shit for giving the lamest excuse that I need to study. I think he deserves better.
I feel like shit for suddenly breaking the news after a great evening out together. I know that’s damn cruel.
I feel like shit for being weak willed and dragging it out until now.
I feel like shit for liking him enough to feel upset by it.
I feel like shit for having my rational self in conflict with my emotional needs.
I am female after all. I am emotionally weak even though I try.
I suffer from the once attached inertia… I’m weak… I wanna have someone around to hold and love.
But man, you’re not “it”. I’m sorry… I care for myself too much to take risks.
Just give me strength to stick with it please…
Hey girl, grow up!
Yea…Time to pack away the toys.
Bye Golliwog…thanks for the good times.
I did it today.
Did what I know I should have done earlier…Followed that rational voice that has been willfully pushed to the back of my mind.
I did it. And I feel like shit.
But better to feel like shit now, then to burn in pain later right?
I feel like shit for giving the lamest excuse that I need to study. I think he deserves better.
I feel like shit for suddenly breaking the news after a great evening out together. I know that’s damn cruel.
I feel like shit for being weak willed and dragging it out until now.
I feel like shit for liking him enough to feel upset by it.
I feel like shit for having my rational self in conflict with my emotional needs.
I am female after all. I am emotionally weak even though I try.
I suffer from the once attached inertia… I’m weak… I wanna have someone around to hold and love.
But man, you’re not “it”. I’m sorry… I care for myself too much to take risks.
Just give me strength to stick with it please…
Hey girl, grow up!
Yea…Time to pack away the toys.
Bye Golliwog…thanks for the good times.
cLoUd DriFteD bY @ Saturday, February 05, 2005 |
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