I am tempted to take what ever I have posted back. Except that I don't do those delete posts, delete blogs thingys... at the very least, gotta have courage to stick to what I've said.
The whole point of blogging for me is to get whatever I feel out of my system. And in line with all those be true to what you feel nonsense... I'm sticking my guts to raw feelings.
Anyway, though I can't control what I feel, I can jolly well control what I do.
In a way, having things done, be it thru my nonsense symbolic gestures or just putting things down in words so that there's like a 'milestone' for me to track my progress, gives me this sense of concreteness so that I can direct my mind at something.
You know what I mean? (JY: I'm thinking of u now)
Then again, if justice is giving someone what they deserve then I think I'm not just to myself.
But, maybe its a good idea to hang unto pain, coz like I said to S: The longer the break before the next venture, the better it is... so just torture yourself over and and over again.
Or else it'll just be rebound after rebound after rebound... *bleahz*
and in case I forgot to mention,
Feeling pukey sucks and I worry for myself...
The whole point of blogging for me is to get whatever I feel out of my system. And in line with all those be true to what you feel nonsense... I'm sticking my guts to raw feelings.
Anyway, though I can't control what I feel, I can jolly well control what I do.
In a way, having things done, be it thru my nonsense symbolic gestures or just putting things down in words so that there's like a 'milestone' for me to track my progress, gives me this sense of concreteness so that I can direct my mind at something.
You know what I mean? (JY: I'm thinking of u now)
Then again, if justice is giving someone what they deserve then I think I'm not just to myself.
But, maybe its a good idea to hang unto pain, coz like I said to S: The longer the break before the next venture, the better it is... so just torture yourself over and and over again.
Or else it'll just be rebound after rebound after rebound... *bleahz*
and in case I forgot to mention,
Feeling pukey sucks and I worry for myself...
cLoUd DriFteD bY @ Tuesday, April 12, 2005 |
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